Behind My Browns

The smoking of weed, although a very social activity, is also a very private thing.  Social in the fact that all us dope smokers like to get together to smoke it together.  Private in the fact in most instances dope smoking is attached a negative stigma, to have the few who view it that way know can have an impact on your daily dealings with them.  In an effort to have not to explain, we take any means possible to keep that private.  It makes life easier that way.

I can also take some control away from that.  Almost like,

"I know something you don't.  Heh, I'm high, you're not and you have no clue I'm high".

I'm putting one over on you, I've got a leg up.........you get the idea.  Like some one, some altered ego is actually looking out through my eyes but from somewhere behind, somewhere inside my mind's eye.  All he ever wants to do is just...look.  See what's going on.  Someone sitting and looking out from behind my browns.

This person from behind my browns is essentially me, but sees thing just a little differently, from a different perspective.  He's little more relaxed.  Not worried about "snapping to" every time someone calls or emails.  I like that aspect about the Behind the Browns guy.  A thing I seek to change about the in front me. 

Behind the Browns guy also seems to be a little more creative.  No that's not quite right, Behind the Browns guy allows himself to be expressive, through writing and playing guitar.
I like that about Behind the Browns guy.  Allowing someone to see an emotive side where you're out there for all to see.

Behind the Browns guy has some of the better parts of me.  He lives where the young live.  In music and word and ideas.   I hope to never lose that part of me. The part that Behind the Browns guy is, or who reminds me of who I used to be.  I like being reminded of youth.  I lost track of that person a long time ago and it took me a long time to rediscover him.  I don't want to lose that.